Childhood Fears

So my fear as a child was quite a irrational fear. I always thought someone was coming to get me, I know, WEIRD. But, yeah, so I would be afraid of every stranger and every time we walked into the house, I wouldn't feel comfortable going far into the house without having my mom checking it out. Yeah, I feel totally weird right now. And I would also be afraid that my mom had to call like 911 on any day. I don't understand that last fear, considering I had never had to call 911 then. But now, it seems so irrational and silly. I don't understand why I was so afraid.

Autumn

"Everyone must take time to sit and watch the leaves turn." - Elizabeth Lawrence

Fall is most definitely my favorite season. It's just a time when things are changing and it's very pretty. Me and my grandmother share this season as our favorite. Every time we get together around fall, we always talk about how it looks so pretty outside, how it feels good and whatnot. It's just an amazing season. (:

In fall, everything is changing; granted, they are getting ready to die, but it's still beautiful. I feel bad for people who have never seen the leaves change because it is so pretty and it's just like a religious experience to me. It makes me love nature all over again and it's so beautiful. I couldn't imagine there being no fall. It would be so sad.

Laughter

So. There is this person in my English class right now and he is LAUGHING ridonculously loud. But whatever.

I love laughter, it is my medicine. Without laughter, honestly, my life would suck.

I have learned to laugh at myself, finally. Before then, I was unhappy with myself because I didn't know how to laugh at my little mistakes that were so trivial they were ridiculous. But now that I can, life is better.

And I can even laugh at this guy over here laughing. (:

"Act quickly, think slowly"

Haha. Isn't the turtle just the cutest thing you ever saw? (:

Anyhow, I never add pictures to my blogs and I have been told that I need to do so. I went to Google Images, and found this picture when I typed in slow turtle cartoon. I know, it's precious.

Okay, so to the actual point of the blog which is this quote. Which, to me, sounds like an oxymoron. How are you to act quickly, yet think slowly? If you should think before you act, it doesn't make sense, at least not to me. But, I guess in a sense it could.

In different situations you do have to act quickly. Such as situations when your adrenaline kicks in and what not and you don't have time to think about what you are doing.

In other situations, you have to think. You're given a lot of time to think and not enough to do. I don't know, maybe I'm over-thinking this. Anyone?

Is it Easier to Fight With Dignity or Surrender in Shame?

Good question. I think it's much easier to surrender in shame. When you surrender, you're giving up, and it's much easier to give up than fight. Sometimes when people fight for what they believe in, they're afraid of what others might think, therefore they surrender. It is so hard for people nowadays to fight with dignity and not surrender at the first sign of a problem. I can admit to being guilty of this, even though I wish I wasn't, but I am; and I accept it and learn from it. I now try to fight with dignity.

Money

It would be naive of me say that money does not make an impact on my life. My family does struggle to pay the bills and do everything. With me in so many extra-curricular activities, that makes it that much harder. Money is important, but does not define someone or make them who they are. Their personality makes you who you are; not your financial situation.

When you don't have money, it impacts your life quite a bit. You struggle day to day to meet needs; you are stressed out. There is a mulitude of impacts that money does have on your life. But it's not the most important thing in your life.

I do not believe money makes the world go round. It might make the economy go round, but not the world. To quote The Beatles, "All you need is love"

Yes, I am a Beatles geek and I know it. (:

CAP Group

"Everybody get to this thing I'm getting to." Ahh, Coach Todd in CAP group is pretty funny. Not knowing what he's doing and what not. Pretty amazing.

"How do you get the passwords?"

"I checked the ILP."

"No, seriously."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I love CAP group. I wish we had it everyday. (:

A Family that Laughs Together Stays Together

Laughter keeps a family together. Without laughter, you could notget through life's hardships. You have to learn to laugh at yourself and make light of things that weigh heavily. I couldn't imagine life without laughter, it'd be really depressing. I laugh 24/7 and life without laughter wouldn't be life at all.

Madison Dobbs

In an English class that I am an aide for, they finished the novel, Tears of a Tiger today. When I was in English 9, I never read it because I took Honors. But the book struck me. The book centers on a high school that is ravaged by death. One night after a basketball game, four players get in a car, after drinking, and are involved in an accident. One of the four dies and the one that was driving feels completely responsible.

I can only think of two reasons that the book struck me so much. For one, I'm driving now so it scares me everytime I'm in the car. Two, I lost someone almost three years ago to a car accident. He was in high school, only fifteen, and driving, which is legal in Tennessee (he had a hardship license). The book talked about the funeral for the player that was killed and it made think so much of the funeral I attended for my friend. He was a football player, baseball player, and all around good guy. I miss him a lot, even though I didn't get to see him much at all.

I won't ever be the same after what I went through with losing him. Neither will people who knew him. Every year around this time, he died November 13, 2006 and I carry his funeral card with me in my wallet, so that I feel that he's with me all the time. It's very hard to believe it's almost been three years since he has died and I miss him so much. Rest in peace.

What Home Means to Me

I am not, whatsoever, ready to leave home. I am still very attached. When I went to FEA camp this summer, my mom was very worried and very concerned about me the whole time. We talked to each other every day at least once. I couldn't imagine leaving home soon. I think I'm going to stay home a bit longer (:

People in Glass Houses

Nope. They shouldn't throw stones. But they do. We all do. John 8:7 says: "When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, 'If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." I have been on the receiving end and on the giving end. It feels really bad to both throw and receive said "stones". No one should do it and it hurts both parties involved.